so what happened?
the love.
the friendship.
everything else.
you knew that i needed you.
cause you were my closest confidant.
cause you were the only one who knew me through and through.
honestly.
even though i agreed.
for you to be alone.
i was breaking inside.
and now i'm kinda lost.
i know i am.
you know that i dont just open up to anyone.
you know me so well.
and yet.
and yet you make a decision like that.
forgive me.
but the end has yet to come.
but i know.
just soon.
you know you're still the one.

i didn't go to school today.
rahh!
i was supposed to.
but i guess i was just too lazy.
and too tired.
and school.
yeah.
i really believe what apple said.
i rather that i have no life that have one with so many problems.
so what if i'm running away.
i'm better this way.

i'm better off alone anyway.
so i won't try.
to make this work.
cause i tried once.
and i'm sick of trying and trying and getting nothing in return.
so once is more than enough.
cause i dont want to waste my energy on something that most likely wont work out.
alone is good.
alone is good.
but claire said that i'm becoming more and more like you.
oh well.
fuck this.

i need to make myself happy.
and leave all this emoness somewhere far far away.

i miss you still though.
try to remember that.

oh.
and by the way.
say what you want to say about them.
i'm personally offended.
but fuck.
i'm not the one suffering.
you are.
so be it.
insult them all you want.
its not my fault that you can't be humble and accept that you're not as good as they are.
maybe its time you realise who is at fault and admit it and improve on it.
cause i know that they rock.
and i'm proud of them.
and i love them to bits.
so yeah.
up to you.
i don't care.


i don't help those who give a fucked up attitude.
so change that attitude of yours first.